Introvert Burn Out
May. 6th, 2017 08:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Tired. People'd the helling fuck OUT. Introvert Burn Out. Seriously, people IRL Go the FUCK AWAY. I'm exhausted, hurting, and just done. I'm barely hanging on from not screaming and starting to cry and throwing things. I'm exhausted and have totally reached my fucking limit of social interaction today.
Yet? I can't hole up somewhere and not people. No, I'm expected to sit behind this counter and fucking *smile* and sell people magic cards and candy bars while the husband plays in a tourney. I've been at the paying job since 8 am this morning, got done at three (on time for fucking once) and came in to do THIS. I will be here til 11 pm tonight.
And I still have two more days of the job that pays starting @ 8 AM. And having to be nice, and smile, and make small talk and interact. I don't want to people anymore. No, just no. Nooo. I need downtime and quiet time and NO PEOPLE. But I'm not going to get it for another two days, and then I will probably have to deal with well meaning but dense that doesn't get why I want to be LEFT THE FUCK ALONE ON MY DAY OFF.
I'm just DONE with dealing with outside and peoples expecting me to Extrovert and be cheerful. So ready to tell the next person to fuck off.
Yet? I can't hole up somewhere and not people. No, I'm expected to sit behind this counter and fucking *smile* and sell people magic cards and candy bars while the husband plays in a tourney. I've been at the paying job since 8 am this morning, got done at three (on time for fucking once) and came in to do THIS. I will be here til 11 pm tonight.
And I still have two more days of the job that pays starting @ 8 AM. And having to be nice, and smile, and make small talk and interact. I don't want to people anymore. No, just no. Nooo. I need downtime and quiet time and NO PEOPLE. But I'm not going to get it for another two days, and then I will probably have to deal with well meaning but dense that doesn't get why I want to be LEFT THE FUCK ALONE ON MY DAY OFF.
I'm just DONE with dealing with outside and peoples expecting me to Extrovert and be cheerful. So ready to tell the next person to fuck off.